A Swift kick

God gives us what we need and today that happened to be a swift kick in the ass. Yes I said that because that is exactly what happened verbatim.

As of late Em and I both have been struggling with things. I want this, I want that. Want, want , want. I was telling Em she was just like Veruca Salt, "I want a golden ticket daddy, I want an oompa loompa, I want one right now." I have been inundated with requests or demands rather for all of her wants excepts she declares them as needs. We have been talking about the difference between wants and needs and how God gives us what we need. I explained that we should be thankful for all that we have, our family, our friends, our health, Jesus, our church, our lovely home, food to eat. I also explained that she should be glad she had a mommy and a daddy and that I should be glad I had a little girl because some people didn't have any children.

So, I thought I was making a little progress, getting through to this 4 yr only child and grandchild. Well before church she finds a necklace that her friend Jazmin had left here. She . them exclaimed that she needed one just like it. Needed I say. Not today friend, not today.The full on foot kicking fit ensued. So some words were exchanged, some punishment was handed out, some tears were shed.

As we headed to church late with Em's hair all disheveled I marched her right back to her Sunday school class and left her there for the first time and I went to the adult class. I have never been to an adult Sunday school class in my adult life. So go ahead and ask me what our topic was. It was asking God for what you want and getting what you need. We talked about as a child we wish and hope for things like fancy houses and cars and how your perspective changes as you get older.

Well, I am soon to be 33 and my perspective surely needs to change. As I was swimming in our lovely little pool yesterday I told Coleman I eventually want a really big pool and a hot tub. He then asked "Who is Veruca Salt?" I would say many people have a little Veruca in them. God is gonna help me send her packing.

I like ho hum

Quite possibly a horrible week. Coleman has been at home sick and that means he is really sick cause that man doesn't stay out of work for anything. He had been to the doc several times and continues to run a fever even on antibiotics and the diagnosis is still a sinus infection. Hum....

Well, whatever it is I pray it passes quickly. I am definitely not used to seeing that man down and out and I do mean down. We will get through all this crap and get back to our ho hum life soon, hopefully. I like ho hum!

What is a wife?

What is a wife? Well apparently I have forgotten. Somehow along the way I have become self absorbed. The focus of my marriage has been my physical ailments and how best to work around them. I have been preoccupied with my work schedule, Emily's piano and swim lessons and Coleman's to do list that I have forgotten that I am Coleman's wife.

I was his wife before I was a nurse, before I was a mother. I have been slacking in that department in a major way. My hip is fixed for the most part. Every day GOD is healing it more and more. Now it is time for me to make Coleman remember why he married me, why he feel in love me.